#27

Calm life without any great changes :)
Favorite song/video now is Disintegration :D Dita is amazing as usual, song is beautiful :)

Opened new serial for myself - Once upon a time. And sometimes really seems it's so stupid but I couldn't stop and watched all the fisrt season at this weekend :D Very nice and... romantic, probably. Sweet. Cute. Charming. Fairy :) And I like Jennifer Morrison very much. She is very-very beautiful <3
Learning Spanish :D Or better to say "try". I try to learn Spanish. I have found this language very gentle and beautiful. And I have decided to learn it Oo Started with alphabet :D And actually I'm already confused cos' it's unusual and unaccustomed afre English alphabet. But it's interesting. A lot of new words :D New knowledge. New language. Suppose it's not so bad idea ^^
There is calmness at work now. Yet. I guess chaos will start again soon. But I can live calm still. And hope calmness will be here as long as possible.
I can proud of me. I started to train every day again. And sometimes it makes me feel strong pain in all my body, but sometimes it makes me feel myself better than any time before. It's woth little discomfort ^^ It will be better soon. I know it.
And I still try to end a story about Rhaegar and Lyanna. And I hope it'll be ended soon :) Actually I'm tired cos' of it already... it's on 120+ pages already... A_A
Oh! I recieved postcard from Barcelona with Messi :D It's lovely postcard in October ^^

So... that's all.
Rays of love.

#so_so

So. El clasico. Barcelona - Real Madrid. I even found time for watching this game *yes, Lulu stoped to watch movies and serials for watching this game xD*
Anyway about my day off in general. Today at morning I woke up with thoughts about pasta with cheese :D But I didn't have cheese and also didn't have wish to go to market for buying it :D And I decided to cook sweet cupcakes A_A I guess cupcakes are not for me >_> I cook good. Soup? Ok. Meat? Ok. Chiken? With great pleasure! Cookies? Of course! Even huge sweet cakes! But... cupcakes is my curse >_> So I did it anyway. But more than half of my "creations" I had to sent to garbage box >_> *I'm wizard of kitchen fuck yeah*
Also I recieved today my firts postcard from Spain! But it was sent by chinese boy who lives in Cordoba and studies Spanish. *I'd like to live there too :(((*
Also I did cleaning on my kitchen. Watched new episod of Marvel's "Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.", Spanish movies "Combustion" (actully I even almost like it :D), stupid movie "Just Wright" and danced almost all day on kitchen during cooking and cleaning. I can say I have spent this day almost useful.
And when started Barca vs. Real Madrid's game my internet started to work very bad >_> Anyway the game was not so good as I thought. Coongratulations to Neymar who scored at the first time and opened count. And of course my lovely Sanchez scored too :) Was nice shot :D And last goal was from Jese Rodriguez to Barca's gate. Anyway it didn't change result - Barca won. But I can't say that I liked this game. It was almost al time bored and uninteresting. Where was Messi? :( And I'm sad that Sanchez came to game only at the second time *ye-e-es-s-s-s, Lulu wanna look at Sanchez all time :D* There was not a lot of interesting and danger moments. Lyrical digression... I can't understand for what Real Madrid gave 100 millions... As commentator said "Bale's going away. Was only one really worthwhile moment from him nearly gate of opponents". Only one? Really? For 100 millions?.. Boring >_> Yes, I understand nothing in football. Better go to watch one more spanish movie...
Photos are not from today's el Clasico. Just Snachez to everyone :D Lovely number nine!

#little_happiness

Lulu's lucky girl. Today Lulu recieved 10 postcards! Never before I recieved so much postcard at the same time *_*
Two postcards from Turkey with night city views. Really beautiful and amazing!
The first card from Hong Kong! And the first from Belgium.
Postcard from chinese Rui who studies in U.S.A. It traveled one month from America to Belarus!
And also superman from Australia ^^
I'm happy :3 This is my own kind of happiness *_* Meow!

#24

Life is boring :) Almost nothing to tell.

I came back at work at 15th October after session. At 16th October I had the greatest scandal with my chief: he screamed and blamed me in everything. Actually he brought me to mind and I screamed too >_> Was very passionate conversation. At the end he made to cry and I decided to leave this fucking work. And now it helps me to keep good mood at work :) Thoughts about new work make be really calm and happy. Also I have found place where I could go. Very good, calm and well payed place. But I didn't decide precisely where I'll go but it doesn't matter now. I have target and everything will be better :3

Also not long time ago I spent about 20 euro to postcards... I also heard that I'm mad :D *could be, guys xD* And for information one postcard in Belarus costs 0,2 euro :( I have bought about 100 postcards... I gues I'm really mad A_A

Anyway at Sutarday I rode bicycle. It was so amazing, I missed it very much. Also I fed ducks and one white swan :) Now I feel pain in my legs, right arm and back :D Sutarday was amazing :D Also I re-watched "Startrek: Into the Darkness" (Cap. Kirk, I love you!Commandor Spock! I wanna have children from you!!!!) and watched "The Lone Ranger" (As usual I'm in love with Johnny Depp! He's amazing. And Helena is amazing too :D Really awesome woman xD). Now I know who I wanna be when I'll grow up! xD Wanna be jurist as John Reed xD Also I was surprised with William Fichtner who played Buch Cavendish! I like him soooo much *_* Nice movie.

I didn't know what to do at Sunday and... I decided to watch movies all day long and do nothing :D During the day I watched "Colombiana" (senseless movie, but I like Zoe Saldana), "The Words" (again Zoe and also Bradley Cooper :3) and at the end "The great Gatsby". I was in love with Di Caprio more early (after "Inception", "Shutter Island", "The Departed" and my lovely "J.Edgar") and here he's amazing again. And also I liked my lovely Spider-man Tobey Maguire. Actually I didn't understand - I like this movie or not. I'm lover of soundtracks but in Gatsby I didn't like it >_> In my opinion this modern music spoiled not bad movie. Anyway what did I understand after this movie? The blond girl was stupid whore :D Decided to read book *yes, Lulu didn't read Gatsby yet*

Also I watched two seasons of "American Horror Story" and I'm in love with this serial xD

That's how Lulu lives lolo

All usefull what I do now - writting funfic xD

#12th

Nice song with sense of text what I can't combine with positive music :D

Recieved four new postcards. And oh... Passed all my exams! :D Session is closed. And before I'll back to my hated work I'll have two days off and it's A-MA-ZING! :D *xo xo xo*

Oh also my sister's birthday is today :D

#swap

Recieved yesterday postcard from Francesco from Italy. It's amazing I'm in love!!!

Signed one postcatd for him too. Hope we'll continue to exchange postcards *_*
Happy-happy-happy Lulu :3

#yesterday_today_tomorrow_the_day_after_tomorrow

So... yesterday was strange day. At the first I have visited work yesterday. And how says in Belarus "я охуела" and if try to translate it would be something like "I was fucking shocked". At last week I was there. I prepared all documents. I explained my STUPID FUCKING CHIKEN WITHOUT BRAINS chief's deputy what and where need to bring. And with *as says here* the calm soul I went to the university. And yesterday I came at work and.... *drumdroll* found all these document on my work table. I didn't know what to think. Is she really so fucking stupid?! How could she be so stupid?! Oh! Yesterday I wanted to unscrew her head! All the same she doesn't use it. Hoh... And of course when I'll back at work from my session it will be only my fault that we can't continue to construct on all our objects and can't start one new object cos' we don't have all needed agreements. Really? Am I only one who need it? No, guys. I don't need it and I don't care. If my chief's deputy is so headless it's not my problem. And also it helps me to understand that I wanna really leave this work. I'm fed. I know they will start to get my nerves with new energy when I'll back. And I won't let they. I won't work gratis. Hah... after when I came in university and my collegue called me to say that headless deputy said her (my collegue) to call me and say me that I must come at work and answer some treatments and make all reports. Must! Really? And of course after this call I decided to not visit work any more untill my session will end. Go to hell, fool! And now I'm in good mood cos' I know soon I'll leave this hell for the better cahnce in my life :3 But anyway... go to hell, headless deputy :D *yeah, I like to say it :D*
Anyway also I had little trip yesterday to one construction and there I laughted without limits when puzzled builders were stealing an office container without one front wall but with tables and some plans inside! :D

Then as I said already I came in university and sat on one leacture of the civil society. And then *bad-bad girl* I leaved last leacture with my classmates :D We bought three bottle of champagne and went to sleep only at 2 or 3 am :D Today I had to wake up at 6:45. And of course I didn't sleep enough. At the end I came home at 9 am and fell asleep. Woke up at half of 2 pm and went to lessons :D Also I defended my course work today! Mimimi xD
Anyway today I have to learn philosophy :( At thuersday examination in philosophy will be A_A And I don't know how I'll pass it. Two groups with how my group goes to leactures have passed this examination. If I could use the word "pass" in this case :D There are about fourty students in both groups. About half of them have passed and half of them will go to retake... And I can't imagine how to learn it. My brains are not created for philosophy I guess :( And I don't understand a lot. And I can't learn what I don't understand. It's impossible mission what I must do. So... will see what will be :)
Signed four postcards to Czech Republic, Germany, Russia and also in Poland on Russian :D Seems I'd like to do any thing instead learning philosophy *and it's right XO*
Tomorrow two leactures of judiciary will be again as today. And I won't can learn philosophy in their time, and it makes me think I won't learn fucking philosophy in time...
In headphones suddenly is Tokio Hotel. You can not believe my but these strange Germans help me to learn fucking philosophy xD And also help to not sleep :D Cos' I wanna sleep sooooo much :((( Better I'll back to my warm cacao and philosophy A_A 

#blah-blah-blah

Found nice video with amazing light song. And now I'm sitting with terrible headache, tired and sleepy and singing "love you very very very-very much" :D Better if you'll see with your own eyes, really beautiful and inspired video. As usual Barca is the best! :3 Love you, guuuys!!! <3 <3 <3 =*****

Also the song is good what plays in video (Close up - October). It's in time now :D *la-la-la~~~*
In postcrossing I got today address nice guy from China who likes FC Barcelona as me :D And actually I guess he likes it more than me but it doesn't matter. I signed his postcard very good xD Really I became satisfied! :D Even made photo for memory :D *bad quality of photo cos' I don't have energy for standing up and repeating with good light. I'm vegetable and my head is paining :(*

Today in university I saw my own card with privet information and had laughed long time. Seems like I was with fake hairs at that time :D
Ah, tired. Go to sleep A_A Tomorrow I'll learn phylosophy for my near exams. God, save my soul and save my mind. Amen.
Rays of love!

#19

The third day of my exams' session. Now there is leactures every day. Phylosophy and administrative law :D Tomorrow leactures of basics of pedagogy and psylosogy will be. Two leactures at 18:40 :3 It means Lulu could sleep enough tomorrow :D Ye-e-e-e-a-a-ah :D I'll miss work and will wake up when I'll wake up :D
Bought present to my elder sister Anastasia :D Her birthday will be at 12th October. I decided to buy nootebook's bag for her long time ago. And today I found what I searched all this time ^_^ And it's great cos' I can forget about it till 12th and live calm :3
Installed FIFA'14 on my samsung, played FIFA all administrative law's leactures today... Lulu's the greatest student ever! xD
Recieved today at morning envelope from Croatia. It consist of postcard and three coins *_* I was so happy when opened it! And also funny FIFA'10 stamp is on envelope :D

When I wanna sleep my english becomes the worst than it's in usual time. And I wanna sleep. Seems it's time to go to bed :D

#revelation

Suddenly... I found myself on ficbook where ficwriters publish their works. And I do the same xD
Found the most amazing  funfic about Real Madrid and not only they xD It's amazing story about Sergio Ramos and girl who moved to Madrid from Moscow. Actually I don't care about Ramos but the author of this funfic writes so breathtakingly. I'm in love!
That's how Lulu's working today :D
Also I'm trying to finish my sadly song about Lyanna and Rheagar :D Seems I'm in the middle of my way... A_A
Anyway I think it's really good for me - to read and write funfics. It's very funny and joyful! :D And makes me to be happy and keep smile. Almost like postcards :D
Mimimi :3
Today I decided to make t-shirt with meow-meow Messi xD Wanna make it so much! So in few days I'll make my little dream come true :D It would be really funny! XD

#last_week

Last week before I'll back to Institute for my session :) Last five days of work. And I have no ideas how to do everything in time on my stupid work. Tomorrow I'll have to go to my chief and tell him about one mistake O_o And it seems he will kill me. Actually sometimes I think about how would be perfect if I'd be fired :D I wouldn't have to think a reason for leaving work :D *stupid minds*
Writting funfic and wanna end it as soon as possible. Seems I'm losing my inspiration every day more and more and don't wanna wait for time what I could write nothing.
Today is a day of Hurts. Except my lovely Stay, Guilt, Mercy and Only You I found amazing slowly cover on Oasis's Wonderwall.

Yesterday I was woken up at 8 am. I had thirty minute for breakfast, washing teeth and wearing my clothes. Then I went to traffic police. For last getting of documents. And at the end I lost almost day with this stupid Caddy what I wanted to break tomorrow >_> Came back home only about 4 or 5 pm. Was hungry and angry, hated all the world. And today is really useless day. I woke up at 10 am. And I'm still in bed. Reading, listening music and doing nothing. Suppose I'll be sorry tomorrow that I lose this day. But today I'm just vegetable. It's cold on the street and maybe will be raining. And I don't wanna ride alone today. So I'm just staying at home.

Yesterday I recieved amazing postcard from Malaysia! Really fantastic and funny card. I'm in love with it xD Thanks to nice Postcrossing's user GreenTeaGal. She made my day :)

Also Leo Messi played 250 games in La Liga :) Wonderful Messi :) Greetings to Messi.

#last_drop_again

Today was the hardest day of my work >_> Really was hard often before but today was the most crazy and stupid day. And I guess it's enough for me. I'll go to exams' session and after will be what will be. And I don't care about chief any more. Why should I care about him if he doesn't care about me? I guess I don't have to. After work I feel terrible headache. And I know that tomorrow will be terrible day cos' I have found one great mistake in one letter what I have wrote to other organization for construction times' agreement. Seems we have lost one object when we have edited this letter. And we edited it the least five times... And I know that there is my fault but my chief's fault is here too. But I know very well that at the end it will be only my fault, chief will blame only me and noone more. I'm sure in it more that I wanted... Anyway I'm tired cos' of this wild temp of work and every day's the ends of the world. I'm not surgeon and noone would die if I'd do something little slowly as he wants every day. I just need time for understanding. And usual at the end I recognize that really I had more time that he said. And cos' of it at the end I do a lot of mistakes. And very serious blunders... and ath the end it's only my fault >_> I thought that nothing could surprise me. And every day I see something new, do something new and hear something new. And every day more crazy that days before, more wild and more exhausting...
Anyway the song of today's evening is Ray Charles' "Hit the road Jack":

And I'd like to say my chief "Hit the road" :) Dreams, dreams,dreams. And song for relaxing:

As usual I just believe that everything will be alright. Couldn't be something other. Everything becomes better everytime, and the present time is not exception. All I can do now is to believe in the better end :) And noone could make it to be deprived for me.

Yesterday Barcelona played with Ajax :( And I missed translation as usual. Last time my internet become the more and more worst every day. Sometimes seems like speed falls down on my eyes. And I'm tired cos' of it. That's why I offered setting of new cables for new network in my flat. Thanks God, there will be good internet soon. And I could watch football without probles. And now that's all I need for happiness :( Miss Barca guys and hate my work *Amen!*
Oh, better I'll go to finish my The Game of Thrones' funfic xD
Rays of love!

#what_i_ve_done

Recently I have finished my course work. Resutl of last days off: not enough rest, sleepless nights and finished cours work. I passed it yesterday and forgot as the worst nightmare. And this's very good :)
And today at morning I recieved messagr from one italian man who's interested in exchanging postcards with me. And this's amazing :D
Actually I wanna boast of my new postcard what I have ordered week ago:

Finally I have really nice postcards and I wanna send all of them as soon as possible :) 

Today is only Thursday. I wanted to take day off to Wednesday, but chief, of course, don't wanna let me go >_> If I'd say him that I'll go to exams' session in one and half week he would really not let me go. And of course I still didn't say him... :3 Wanna stay at home tomorrow. Actually I'll have to go to the traffic police tomorrow at morning. And passed license plates. And I'll can forget about poor Caddy and its problems for ever :)

There is chaos at work. One ocncert was at Friday. And my collegue and me should go there. We came there actually but it was really stupid and terrible A_A I think about that it's usual for states organizations - you're forced to visit some measures. And if you lose it you could find mane problems with it. And I lost this concert :) But I guess i could not find more problems than I have now with this the most stupid and nervous work. Suppose I'll say my chief soon tha I leave him with his constant orders and asking of impossible things.

Today I can't think about work and also work :D I think only about pillow and warm coverlet. Wanna go home and lay in the bed and sle-e-e-e-ep. And go to Barcelona :D

About Barcelona I'm little upset. In Belarus something happens with state and with money. And even if I understand in these changes nothing, I understand that at the end nothing good will be here. I just hope that my Barcelona won't leave me >_> Because thoughts about it are the single thing what helps me to endure every day at this fucking work :(

Anyway I passed work and now I'm on the finish line. Soon I'll leave work for studying. And two weeks noone will ask me to impossible thing. Really hope that it will be enough for taking rest a little and collecting energy to continue to work here again :( Oh, I never hated my work so much before :(

Rays of kindness to everyone.

#days_off

So. There was amazing days off. Why? Because of my stupid work. Now when I hate it so much my days off became really magical. I forget about work and live like another life. Every days off I like to leave my life and start to another. It's really nice feeling :)
Today I was going on the bus to home and one old woman was late to bus. She run on the road but bus driver closed doors and started to move. She screamed and started to wave her arms. And driver stoped the bus on the middle of road and opened door. For what am I writting it here right now? I don't know I felt myself really happy at this moment. I thought about my life and about everything what I did in my life and result is happiness. Driver was very kind man. He waited for old woman. And old woman crossed all bus for saying "thanks" to driver. It was really nice. I forgot that people can be kind here in Belarus. Every day I see people who are angry, hate everything and everyone and blame everyone in their own mistaces. Sometime I can't look at people who are around me. I can't understand why they are who they are. Why are they everytime so unsatisfied? Why do they can work at work what they hate? Why do they blame another people in their mistakes? Why do they blame another people that they don't get what they have wanted and dream about? Hoh >_> I was in Bulgaria and when I came back to Belarus I was really shoked. Why is our country so... taut? >_> Sometimes I have very strong desire to leave everything here and go away as far as possible. And forget everything. But at the end doesn't matter that I don't like country where I live. Doesn't matter that I don't like many people who are around me. At the end I'm nonetheless happy. I thought about everything what happened in my life (what I remember :D). I think I made a lot mistakes. I had many chances, many amazing people in my life. I lost a lot of chances and a lot of these people. But I'm thankful for my family, for people who are still near me. For possibility to love and to be loved. I still have dreams and it's wonderful too. Anyway I'd like everyone to be happy as me. Just without reasons. Just because we're still alive and can do everything.
It was lirical digression about life. Now my thoughts about Barca's news will be. And again I have to read news what make me really sadly. The firstly Iniesta don't wanna continue to play in Barcelona. And the next "amazing" new is that Mascherano will leave club at this winter. Are you kidding me? O_o Really? Mascherano? Leave? Barcelona? At winter?.. Wanna fall on the gound, rise my arms and scream as loud as possible: " WHYYYYY?????!!! GOD, WHY??!?!??!?!?!" Joke, of course. But I really dislike this new >_> Mascherano is one of Barca's player who I like almost every game when I see him :( And he'll leave. It's not fair. Villa was transfered to Real Madrid. And where will Mascherano go? :( I know I understand in football really little. And I know that it's normally for football world - to buy and to sell players. But I can't become accustomed to thought that someone of Barca's member could play in other team as David :( *Villa I miss you :(* Why is football world so obsessed on the money? :( It's sadly.
In my earphones Arctic Monkeys' "Why'd you only call me when you're high" is again. And evening is the most calm than this day. And more calm as Saturday. I went to sleep at 4 a.m. at Friday. And yesterday I woke up at 7 a.m. Went to traffic police for gettint license plated for poor Caddy what started to go. Hardly but it really went to poilce >_> Seemed it could stop at any moment X_X Got plates at 5 p.m. I had enough time for going home and backing >_> I was exposed to rain yesterday. Twice. Now I have little throatache >_> Amazing...
And I still have to finish my course work. I have to write 10 sheets more and that's all. But it become harder and harder. Because the more I write this work the less I understand what I write about... And I have no ideas how I will pass exam with this object X_X And my exams' session will be in two weeks. I'm glad that I'll can leave work soon for any time but it seems session will be little wild :)
Anyway. I wanna sleep :( But I'll go and finish this stupid work for forgeting about it once and for all time!

#roar

Today my sister should get her new passport what she passed few weeks ago for exchanging. So seems we will pass our passports to Shengen visa soon :) I couldn't make me be unhappy :D
Tomorrow I will wake up at 7 am. Will go to traffic police. Now I'm sitting and thinking about poor Caddy. Seems it could break during the way from garage to police department >_> Tomorrow will be very interesting day A___A
Tomorrow I should buy a waterproof jacket. Will ride a bicycle :) It's so sad that Minsk is very small city and I don't become tired even if I ride it from one edge to other edge and back :( I wanna be tired cos' of riding!!! >_< But can't :(
Today I was in State Construction Supervision's Inspection. And seems it will be a lot of work at Monday again :( Thank God that at the next couple days I can forget about work. But... at 16th of September I will have to pass my course work what I still didn't finish >_> It's really problem. As usual.
Song of this evening: Arctic Monkeys - Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?! Funny official video and very nice song :D

Should write, write, write. And I write but write useless thing like this text >_> Someone... make me write this stupid work :(

Today was day full of strange news. Firstly I read new about Iniesta who doesn't wanna continue to play in Barcelona O_o I'm seriously hope that I's fake information. Otherwise it's really sadly. Will wait for official information. Secondly again unofficial information about stupid tax what our Belorussian Government wanna fix - the tax for leaving country when you go to other countries except Russia and Ukraine and other CIS countries. Stupidness! Really. If you wanna go to Germany for example you have to pay 100 $ >_> Our officials say that only people who go to foreign countries for some goods will pay this tax but really noone knows what it will be. At the first time everyone thought that it's a joke. But time's running out and they talk about it seriously... Will see what will be later... =/ And of course, it's a lot of gossips about money. Someone says that course of dollar and euro will rise. It's not official too but it really could be :( Hey! Guys! I wanna go to Barcelona! Stop to do stupid things!!! >_<

#evening

Just came home. Very tired and wanna sleep so much :)
There was hard day at work as usual. But at the end of the day I thought that I don't wanna lose my nerves in this stupid work for money what is payed to me (pure payment >_>). And I leaved work at 5 o'clock for going to our custom service to take Volkswagen Caddy what is come from Germany. We arrived to custom at six. And I just came home >_> We loose about three hours for preparing all documents, paying all taxes and etc, for waiting of evacuator (cos' Caddy has problems with his engine and when it came to Belarus its accumulator became discharged :D), for bringing poor Caddy to workshop. At Saturday I'll go to traffic police to get Caddy's license plates. And it will be about two hours too :( And it would be if poor Caddy would start to go... Could happens that problems with engine is more hard than seemed.

Night Caddy's trip

Few minutes ago I ordered a lot of beautiful postcards. Now I think how many money I spent for it... but they're really so beautiful... I'll show after.
Anyway now I'm sitting on the couch and drinking mint tea. Good way to keep calm and prepare to sleepeng. Listening The Doors, reading news about Barca, signing postcards and I'm almost backed to normal condition :)

Lulu's evening

Today I recieved message from Spanish men who's interested in exchanging postcards with me. I'm happy :)
I decided to enter in one more university for getting the second education O_o" Sadly but I'll can do it only at next autumn. Wait for it without patience A_A
That's all for today.
Good night, Lulu.
Good night, world :)

#commonness

Today was really terrible day. I don't remember when was the day like that before. Now I feel my self like squeezed orange. Don't have energy any more. My chief became really crazy after day when director in organization where I work was fired. Now my chief works instead director too, and he has twofold work as before. I can understand him, this is really difficult for him. But my nerves can't stand it any more. Every day work becomes the harder and harder and chief becomes the more angry. He screams almost every day and asks me to do things what I never did before. But today's work day cut the ground from under my feet. I did things what can't be stowed in my head. Never. I saw that part of my work that I never saw before. And would be better if I'd never see it. Almost all day I wanted to stop and cry because about things like these in Belarus says "впихнуть невпихуемое". In few words it means "to do impossible things". I'm tired of chief's asking every day about things like that. But today was deadline. I hated my work before but today I really started to thing that it's time for looking new job. I can't say more precisely what happened at my work but now I feel myself really bad. I forgot about everything - about course work, about funfics, about football, about bicycle. At work today everything what I wanted - it's to go at home, lay on the couch, cover by coverlet and forget ebout everything what links with work. It was so stressful for me that I still can't get it over. I know that sleeping is the greatest cure. And I hope that I could fall asleep fast tonight. And I hope more that I could feel myself better tomorrow. Because tomorrow I'll have to back at work and start to do impossible again cos' my chief wants it. And the greatest horridness of this day is that when will come the time to take the consequences it would be really the end. Who will answer? Of course, me. Who else? Doesn't matter - I wanted to do it or not. Doesn't matter who said me to do it. Doesn't matter why I did it. At the end I will be athe edge and it will be only my fault even if in real it's the fault of my chief. At the end I'll be alone as usual it happens in the same cases. People could be really cruel and you do nothing with it. At the end it will be really your fault, you'll stay alone to answer for things what you had to do cos' you didn't have other way to do. Today I was faced with the harsh reality and it was really painful and scareful. And now I don't know what to do any more. Seems I just have belived in the better side of people more that I should. And this is really my fault.
I just want tomorrow to be better day than that. I wanna forget about this fucking work and just stay alone.

#crazy_wednesday

Came back to work. And last days I work-work-work only. A lot of work as usual. Noone did something what was needed to do. So I try to finish all what's needed.
Today we packed my mom's things at her work. At the end of september she'll move on new work place. But now we should to bring all her things to home for two-three weeks. It was the faster as we thought. But anyway at the end I felt myself broken and tired.
I leaved work today about 1,5 hours earlier as should. And I wanted to go at work later tomorrow. But when I came home I notives that I tried to hurry up too much today before my leaving at work and I forgot few documents what I'll need tomorrow. Actually I just thought that I'll wake up one hour later than usual (at 7 o'clock instead 6 o'clock) and will go to Inspection of the State Construction Supervision's Department (yes, it's my work to go there to :D). Buuut.... I'll can't go there without all documents. But I don't wanna wake up at 6 am and go to work as usual... I wanna do nothing and sleep all day long !  Now I'm thinking about how to miss part of work at tomorrow. Hmm... re-read what I wrote. Sounds terrible :D I'm not so bad worker as could seem :) Really my work became really terrible and incredible. I hate it more and mpre often. Last days I have to work at the lunch break and my collegues (with who I miss lunch every day) are offended cos' of it. But I can do nothing. I have to work because otherwise my chief will scream. And I don't wanna listen his screaming.. >_> Nothing strange. Anyway I didn't make plan yet...
Today at work I was little strange. At time when I had time out from work I did strange things. For example I made my little Krapivka (it's my violet plant what live at my work) to read estimate and drink a blueberries' tea...

I'm really tired. Signed three postcards and now it's time to go to sleep. 

Want days off will go faster. I'm vegetable already.

#day_off

As usual.
Weather is good today. And I'd like to ride bicycle but I can't cos' I'm still not so healthy as it could be wanted. Anyway I have spent this day not so bad :D
Firstly I woke up at 9 o'clock. It's not 6 and not 7 :D So I really slept enough today. And it's great :3
Secondly I cooked chicken with carrot and oninon and mashed potatoes :D Mmmm... delicious. I dreamed about creamy mashed potatoes about two weeks :D
Thirdly I did cleaning and ventilated flat very good.
Now my sister's sleeping, mom's watching TV in the other room. And I'm sitting with notebook and thinking about life :)
I still have to write course work. The theme of course work is "The Judiciary and Justice". I wrote about two third. But still can't finish it. Seems I have lost my muse. For me even writing of course works is very hard process :D I have to be in the needed mood and my muse should be with me. Otherwise I can't make me to write and doesn't matter it's urgently or not. I'll have to deliver me course work to institute in 2 weeks. Deadline will be 16th of September. And it seems I'll finish my work at last night before deadline :) As usual. I hope I'll do it.
Today even my funfiction's muse leaved me alone. I wrote noone word. And I don't like what I wrote yesterday. Seems I lost a thread of the narrative and I need a little time for collecting my thoughts in one pile. And seems I couldn't start to write course work again before I'd end this stupid funfic about Lyanna and Rhaegar >_> lol Nothing funny actually. But can do nothing in this case.
I spent so much time in Russian social network. Met a lot of groups with different themes. And found group about Messi and Ronaldo. As usual on the post-USSR space there was a lot of shit, hatred and rage. (Actually this group is created by schoolboy who is mad about Messi, but he (schoolboy) wrote Messi as Mesi >_> Great!). And in general it was opposition of schoolboys who love Real Madrid and schoolboys who love Barcelona (I'm schoolboy wrom the second camp :D Viva Barcelona! Viva Messi! xD). Anyway one boy sent nice video with Barca's game where firstly Barca's training is shown before the game where members of Barcelona are running, falling, screaming, crying, etc. And secondly the game is shown where Barcelona's doing the same :D Without contacts anyway Barcelona's falling, screaming, crying... And again my lovely Dani Alves. My favorite actor :D I looked at the game with Malaga from other side. I'm little upset but... I'm delighted xD They're so funny :D And song from this video is jammed in my playlist (this song :D). Like it very much. Very sadly that I can't find video on YouTube so then it's not a destiny :D (then I have to leave here link to vkontake). And yes, I still love Barcelona :) Maybe even more than before :D
Watched The Help today. Very-very strong and deep movie. I guess my opinion is keen cos' I'm girl. Cried during this movie twice or thrice. Very long and strong. Even felt headache after cos' of crying. And anyway I liked this movie very much. It's awesome and terrible in the same same. It's terrible because it shows relstions between blacks and whites at 60th years. And I thank Good that now it's more better. Actually there is not so much blacks in Belarus. But even here we have people who hate blacks and Chinese or Japanese who moved on our country. Maybe I'm stupid but I never could understand these people.
Suddenly I got Barcelona's t-shirt from season 2006/07 :D This uniform:

It's very nice and quality. I'm in love. And I'm in it already :D Lulu's happy. But I didn't change mind about visiting a shop on Camp Nou in Barcelona for buying t-shirt from present season :D Mimimi :D
Checked flights to Barcelona today again :) It helps me to remember about plans and collect money like good motivation :)
I'll have a lot plans tomorrow. Need to buy new shoes and visit my aunt Tatyana :) And then to go to chose gift for my mom. Her birthday will be at 7th of September. And we (me and my elder sister) still don't know what to present her :( Want to find something special like my mom is. Wanna make her birthday really unusual :) But now it'will be hard to do cos' mom has troubles with her work what makes her upset and what we can't stop (sadly :( ). Anyway... birthday should be happy and funny :) We'll do it :3
At the day after tomorrow I'll go to work :(

P.S. Today is last day of summer. It makes me sad and thoughtful. I had vacation at June, I saw the sea, put my feet in sea water, swam, got tan under Bulgarian sun... but now I'm sitting on the couch looking at Bulgarian plate with picture of Nessebar's view. And I miss it :( Summer is ended and I miss Nessebar. It was the sweetest time of this summer.

#8

Last day off what I have got with my sickness. Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow will be two days off too and then will start to work again.
Today I'm spending time with cup of cacao and cookies. Sister has called and said that she'll bring tasty cake what I have wanted for long days :D
Can't make myself to write course work of the Judiciary :) Instead course work I continue to write Game of thrones' funfic >_> Shit happens.  But it's the perfect way for relaxing what I have found.
I'm almost ok. Everyday I find something what's aching for long time. But in general it's nothing serious. Everything what I really want it's to start to sleep normally. Last week I have slept really bad, have wake up often at nights. And every day I wake up very early. Like I'm going to go to work... I have supposed that I could sleep enough at this week but at the end I was wrong.
Have looked for new bicycle. And at the end I've become really sure that I want GT Laguna.

It's really beautiful and I guess it's very comfortable bicycle. I have tried to ride GT Avalanche and that's all as I said :)

There is the single song in my playlist/ I don't know it. Shazam has said it's "the communication - visions". But google don't find what to say about it. It's very beautiful and little sad piano composition what I can listen for ever.

If be honest I don't wanna come back work :) Ahahah, of course it's nothing strange but really :( I don't want. I never have felt something like now to my work. But now I really hate my work. I respect my chief and I thank him for everything but at the end my work is really terrible. Before I worked another post and I thought I do really stupid work. I wanted to do something more useful. Something more needed. And now I think that doing stupid work it's not the worst what could be in my life >_>

Started to watch "White collar" :D Actually I supposed this serial is about something little different. Supposed it's about lawyers not about FBI and thief O_o But I was wrong again. I have watched one season already. Now I'm watching the second season in the middle. That's what I do instead learning... As usual. I'll do everything to not learn and not work...

P.S.Greetings to Franck Ribery and congratulation for his great dignity :) Poor Messi >_> He's more handsome but not so good as Ribery I guess :)
P.P.S. Miss postcards so much :( Noone came to me at last days :( Wanna burn our post office....

#wednesday

Today is Wednesday already. I have known before that my sudden vacation will end sooner as I want. But I haven't thought that it'd be so soon :( In two days weekend will be and at Monday I'll have to back at work. One thing makes me a little more happy. I'll back at 2nd of Semptember. And at 30th of September my exams' session will start :D And I'll leave work for two weeks again :D Wonders happen :D
Strange but today I feel myself worst than before. Before only hight temperature and headaches were. Now I feel pain in a throat and cough is appeared. Seems I've a cold really now :( Hope I'll have enough time for curing before I'll back at work.
Anyway today Barcelona will play with Atletico again. And I don't know - I'll watch it or miss again >_> Game will be showing in Minsk at midnight and I don't know I would be awake at this time :( I think if I'd watch football before sleeping again I'd listen fucking commentator all night again and wake up at morning with terrible headache... But at this game Messi will back after his trauma. And I'm lost. As says in Belarus и хочется, и колется (both eager and it is pricked - I guess it's really bad translation but I don't know how to translate better). So will see later what would be.
Have signed one more postcard for sending it to wonderful Susanne in Germany. It's so sad - I have twenty postcards in transit. And if start to count about thirty my postcards are traveling somewhere.... :( Where are you, pretty postcards? T_T
I have recieved good news yesterday and today Spain is become little closer. One mom's friend offered me to earn little money :D My mom often likes to say me: "When you start to want something money will find you iself" :D Ahahaha. then I'm lucky girl :D
And at the end lovely meow-meow Messi :D I didn't know what to do that's why I mocked Messi again xD He became really cute :D

#barca_vs_malaga

Oh, cos' of this stupid game I have seen football in my dreams all night long. Can you imagine: players have run on the field all night in my head and commentator have screamed in my head too. Very lound and disgusting >_> Have woken up at 4 o'clock at morning... Couldn't sleep again after it. And now I think that watching football before sleeping it's not good idea. Or maybe it's cos' of I'm ill and still have high temperature. So doesn't matter.

It was strange game. If game with Levante have been like mockery of Levante, game with Malaga have been like Barca's mockery of themselves >_> Looked like Barca have relaxed too much after Levante's losing. Our Russian commentator have said that Malaga is weak team. So if they are weak then why have Barca scored only once? Anyway thanks God play have ended with score in favor of Barca. Because there was a lot times when Malaga almost scored to Barca's gate.

But about everything in order. At 26th minute Iniesta have attempted to score in Malaga's gate. It was really nice trying but  Wilfredo Caballero have caught a ball. I liked him actually. He saved Malaga's gate so many times from Barca's attacks. But at 44th minute Adriano have scrored and opened score in Barca's favor. It was single goal during all game.

Was a lot really funny moments at this game. For example our commentator have said about one moment when Barca have lost a ball: "And he lost it. Anyway Jordi Alba ran and bought! Good Jordi!" And it really looked funny :D

At the 57th minute Pique have tried to score by his back :D Actually I don't know what he have hoped to do but he really have repulsed ball by back :D And even have seen at the gate's side - scored or not :D It would be awesome if he'd scored but It wasn't lucky moment for Pique :D Anyway Pique have jumped so many times at this game :) And Pique is lucky that he have so high height because Malaga's footballers couldn't reach out the ball cos' they're lower than Pique :D

At 62th minute Neymar have come on the field instead Pedro. And poor Neymar have become a vitctim of a lot attacks from Malaga's footballers. For example, at the 88th minute Jesus Games have attacked Neymar very agressive O_o Didn't like it >_> I like unicorns, rainbow and butterflies! :D

Fabregas have lost a ball often yesterday. And I should say something about Alexis Sanchez. He have fallen so often! I lost a count after 5 falling... Poor Sanchez :D Seems he has spent two third of game's time on the grass...

At the second time of game Dani Alves have come on the field instead Adriano. I can't look at Alves without laughing. Really dramatic actor dies inside Dani Alves xD He should leave football and go to theatre or movies :D I guess when his football career will end he really could start to play in theater xD

At the 67th minute it was a moment when Malaga really could score: Valdes has leaved the gate and noone has stopped Malaga to score. But luck was on the Barca's side and attack ended with nothing.

At this game I liked more Pique, Adriano and Valdes. A little Iniesta and Alves (he was really funny xD). Valdes yestreday remembered what means to be a goalkeeper :) He stood idly in game with Levante, but Malaga was more agressive and persistent than Levante.

Now I think what would be if Messi'd not miss this game? Could the result be better?) Will see what will be. Hope Messi will back soon and Barca's games would be more effective. Wait for next game ^^

#5

Few days ago I came on ficbook. And found interesting request about Lyanna Stark and Rhaegar Targaryen (The Game of Thrones). Don't know what happened but I started to execute this request O_o And during the second day I'm sitting and writing >_> I think I wanna re-read the books "A song of Ice and Fire". I never thought before that I like these books so much. Now no new book, no new season of TVshow. And it makes me do strange things like writing funfics >_>
Now I sheltered blue parrot. He lives on my commode and talks with a mirror. He's very agressive parrot. Really stupid and agressive. And over loud. I wake up earlier than everyone else in the my flat. And now this monster starts scream every morning at 6 o'clock when I rise from the bed and he makes sister and mom wake up with me >_> And he likes to bite everyone. Once he bite me so much that i felt pain in my finger all day long. He live here almost week. And now I wanna only find a little more patience to survive at next week and don't throw him to window... I think about this everyday :D
Yesterday I cooked a cake O_O (Suddenly!) Yes, Lulu's able to cook :D Cake with funny name - "The counts' ruins". This name reminded me a song from Game of thrones - Rains from Castamere (I like this song so much! And I like to sing it when I take a shower :D Joke! Maybe... :D).
Today I was in attractions' park *_* I felt myself like a little child. I wasn't happy sooo much very long time :D It's amazing feeling when you can back to your childhood for one day and feel yourself  fifteen years younger :3
But now I'm sick. Seems I have token cold on the one of attractions at park today. I'm in fire with high temperature of my body. But even this can't stop me to write. So I'll end next part on funfic and will go to sleep. It was loooong day. Happy but very long. I'd like everyone could feel the same happiness as me today right now :)
And I still have to watch Barca's game with Atletico. I didn't do it yet >_>
P.S. I very upset cos' of Messi. I don't know what to think about his going away. Messi will miss the game with Malaga at 25th of August. It sounds not good but I really hope that it's cos' of trauma. If it's truth then I hope that Messi will can be able to come on the field soon and feel himself better. But for me it seems little strange. Barcelona have bought Neymar Jr. He have come on the field. And at the next game Messi have said "I can't play". I hope I'm paranoid and my minds are really stupid and wrong :)
God, save Messi. 

#postcards

Text what's didecated to postcards :D At last week I recieved few really amazing postcards what made me to be happy.
At the first it's postcard from Belarus. From wonderful Tatiana. She wished me to go to Barcelona as I want and sent me wonderful postcard for colorful motivation :D Now I think to put it in beautiful frame for standing it on my table at home :)

Then I recieved my first postcard from Esrael. It's funny but on the postcard was printed text on Russian :) It made me to be surprised.

Again I recieved one more postcard from Russia (last time I always get only Russian addresses :( Is there only Russians in postcrossing now?). It's really amazing postcard. And I fell inlove with it as my mom and sister :D

Also I recieved beautiful postcard from China, two postards from Germany and romantic postcard from France ^_^

  

#fcb_vs_levante

Today I finally ended to watch game Barca against Levante.
This match has caused me to feel really conflicting emotions. On one side it's great that Barca won. But it looked like big guys hurted little schoolboys. Count 7:0 in favor of Barcelona.
Messi made me laught at that game. He was killing machine :D At the first he gored goalkeeper of Levante. Poor Navas fell down on his back. Seemed it was really painful :( At the second time Messi did golden strike at Rodas's head when he (Messi) beat penal. I pity Levante's guys but it was really funny.
At second time Neymar Jr. came on the field instead Sanchez. And I didn't understand why Barca bought him. He not only didn't nothing really good but even made a few mistakes and got yellow card cos' of incident with 12th number of Levante (Garcia?). Of course, maybe it was as it was because Martino produced Neymar only at the second time nearly to the end. And almost all time Messi was on the field. Or maybe because Neymar wasn't accustomed to Barca, cos' it was his first game. Will see. I can't judge because I understand nothing in football except handsome guys :D But today he really looked like lost boy who didn't understand where he's and what he had to do. I didn't like Neymar yet. Maybe something will change later. After Barsa vs Atletico de Madrid for example :)
Count was opened by Sanchez on the 3rd minute of match. And it was beat into free gate... Actually I didn't understand how it happened. Also I didn't understand and last goal from Pedro :D Almost all first time looked like Barca's kidding Levante. Six goals were scored at first time. And only at the end on second time Pedro scored last goal on 73th minute of game.
Of course, Messi scored two goals. Ahahaha, how can Barca without Messi's goals?) The first goal was on 12th minute, the second was on the 42th minutes by penalty.
Also Pedro did two goals like Messi. The first was on 26th minute, the second - on 73th (as I wrote before).
Sanchez scored on 3d minute, Dani Alves scored on the 24th minute, Xavi - on the 45th.
Was few times when fighting was really intense. Few times the ball flew at arm's length from the Levante's gate. But at the end almost all game was passed on the Levante's side. Only once ball flew on Barca's gate and Valdes had a chance to remind team that he's here :) And of course penalty was useless.
At the end I can say that I liked very much in this game Pedro, Pique, Messi, Fabregas, Xavi, Sanches.
Wait for game between Barca and Atletico de Madrid :3

#davidvilla

As beginner lover of Barcelona I had enoough time for starting to love cute David Villa. And it's really sad for me that he moved on "Atletico de Madrid". I will miss him on Camp Nou and other Barca's games. Firt goal of Barca what I have seen it was Villa's goal.
So and Villa was one of not many people from Barca who I rememberd at first time :D Now I should remember new surname. It's not fair!

#1

And first message should be about me :) I need to introduce myself. So... let's start.
My name is Lyubov (It's great name. In my native language it means 'love' and it's cool :D). Or just Lulu. I'm 23 years old. I work in the state organization what have business with service and repairing housing. Here I should say that I'm not builder :D I do judicial work. For example I have business with treaties between my organization and other orgaizations what do for us construction projects. And any more else in this way. Actually it's not so interesting for stopping here :)
Except work I spend my time with riding bicycle. Here I should stop and add some words about my riding obsession :D I bought bicycle not a long time ago (one month ago if be more precisely ^^). I never rode bicycle before. Now I'm mad about it. But like to ride alone. Because when I ride with someone it becomes hard to keep attention. And once I had painful incident cos' of it :D
Anyway I like traviling (as everyone writes in profiles around the world). Of course I do! Never saw man who doesn't like to recognize new places. But I was only in Russia and Ukraine before (my mother is from Russia and my father is from Ukraine). But this year I started my mission to take over the word :D Was joke of course :) But at June I visited Bulgaria at first time and I plan to visit Spain and Italy in the nearest time :) And I don't think that it'll be the end of traveling :)
I like to read. Yes, I really like to read. It's my curse. I can't stop and read everything. Sometimes it really doesn't matter what to read cos' of reading process is the main thing :) I like to read fantasy or detectives. And I like books what make me to think about a lot of things. I meet  books like that very rarely :( And I can't read books like Nietzsche or Freud beacuse it seems like my mind is not for books like that... but it doesn't make me really sad :D Everyone can't be geniuses :D
I like to swim. I'm mad about swimming. I like water. Especially salty sea water. I like seas. I grown up on the seaside of the Azov sea. Cos' of it I don't like lakes and rivers' water >_>
Like to chat in facebook. I like to recogniz new people. Sometimes I meet really interesting people.
I'm member of postcrossing. I like to exchange postcards with different people around the world, it's one of the perfect ways to meet new people with who you'd have common interest :) And I like beautiful postcards of course :) I wanna do a great postcards' wall in my flat :D One day... ;)
I like cooking very much. I guess cooking is the good way to keep calm or relax. I like fragrant spices and I like to use they in my dishes.
I like apples and peaches. It's my obsession at this summer :D Last summer I liked bananas and watermelon :D
Not a long lime ago I started to like football. And I started with FC Barcelona and Spanish Primera :)
And at the end I should say what I do here :)
I created this blog for keeping any minds about everything what happens around me, for dreaming sometimes, making plans, for keeping opinions about everything. As says here in Belarus "обо всём и ни о чём". If translate verbatim - about everything and nothing :) I can say only that I created this blog for English practice at the firs time. It's main reason. At the second time I created it beacuse I'm lazy and I never will write in paper diary. But I think that diary is good way for keeping memories. Someday it could remind me about who I was when I was young :)
And if someone would read it I warn - here you can find girl's vision to football. I guess my vision is the different with men's vision. I just write what I think. And if be really honest... I don't know all football's rules yet :D So you can imagine...
Anyway, welcome, Lulu, to your own world with you, your Asus and lovely Barcelona.