#worakls

New discovery of these days is Worakls. Especially Elea. You should enjoy with me.

#27

Calm life without any great changes :)
Favorite song/video now is Disintegration :D Dita is amazing as usual, song is beautiful :)

Opened new serial for myself - Once upon a time. And sometimes really seems it's so stupid but I couldn't stop and watched all the fisrt season at this weekend :D Very nice and... romantic, probably. Sweet. Cute. Charming. Fairy :) And I like Jennifer Morrison very much. She is very-very beautiful <3
Learning Spanish :D Or better to say "try". I try to learn Spanish. I have found this language very gentle and beautiful. And I have decided to learn it Oo Started with alphabet :D And actually I'm already confused cos' it's unusual and unaccustomed afre English alphabet. But it's interesting. A lot of new words :D New knowledge. New language. Suppose it's not so bad idea ^^
There is calmness at work now. Yet. I guess chaos will start again soon. But I can live calm still. And hope calmness will be here as long as possible.
I can proud of me. I started to train every day again. And sometimes it makes me feel strong pain in all my body, but sometimes it makes me feel myself better than any time before. It's woth little discomfort ^^ It will be better soon. I know it.
And I still try to end a story about Rhaegar and Lyanna. And I hope it'll be ended soon :) Actually I'm tired cos' of it already... it's on 120+ pages already... A_A
Oh! I recieved postcard from Barcelona with Messi :D It's lovely postcard in October ^^

So... that's all.
Rays of love.

#12th

Nice song with sense of text what I can't combine with positive music :D

Recieved four new postcards. And oh... Passed all my exams! :D Session is closed. And before I'll back to my hated work I'll have two days off and it's A-MA-ZING! :D *xo xo xo*

Oh also my sister's birthday is today :D

#yesterday_today_tomorrow_the_day_after_tomorrow

So... yesterday was strange day. At the first I have visited work yesterday. And how says in Belarus "я охуела" and if try to translate it would be something like "I was fucking shocked". At last week I was there. I prepared all documents. I explained my STUPID FUCKING CHIKEN WITHOUT BRAINS chief's deputy what and where need to bring. And with *as says here* the calm soul I went to the university. And yesterday I came at work and.... *drumdroll* found all these document on my work table. I didn't know what to think. Is she really so fucking stupid?! How could she be so stupid?! Oh! Yesterday I wanted to unscrew her head! All the same she doesn't use it. Hoh... And of course when I'll back at work from my session it will be only my fault that we can't continue to construct on all our objects and can't start one new object cos' we don't have all needed agreements. Really? Am I only one who need it? No, guys. I don't need it and I don't care. If my chief's deputy is so headless it's not my problem. And also it helps me to understand that I wanna really leave this work. I'm fed. I know they will start to get my nerves with new energy when I'll back. And I won't let they. I won't work gratis. Hah... after when I came in university and my collegue called me to say that headless deputy said her (my collegue) to call me and say me that I must come at work and answer some treatments and make all reports. Must! Really? And of course after this call I decided to not visit work any more untill my session will end. Go to hell, fool! And now I'm in good mood cos' I know soon I'll leave this hell for the better cahnce in my life :3 But anyway... go to hell, headless deputy :D *yeah, I like to say it :D*
Anyway also I had little trip yesterday to one construction and there I laughted without limits when puzzled builders were stealing an office container without one front wall but with tables and some plans inside! :D

Then as I said already I came in university and sat on one leacture of the civil society. And then *bad-bad girl* I leaved last leacture with my classmates :D We bought three bottle of champagne and went to sleep only at 2 or 3 am :D Today I had to wake up at 6:45. And of course I didn't sleep enough. At the end I came home at 9 am and fell asleep. Woke up at half of 2 pm and went to lessons :D Also I defended my course work today! Mimimi xD
Anyway today I have to learn philosophy :( At thuersday examination in philosophy will be A_A And I don't know how I'll pass it. Two groups with how my group goes to leactures have passed this examination. If I could use the word "pass" in this case :D There are about fourty students in both groups. About half of them have passed and half of them will go to retake... And I can't imagine how to learn it. My brains are not created for philosophy I guess :( And I don't understand a lot. And I can't learn what I don't understand. It's impossible mission what I must do. So... will see what will be :)
Signed four postcards to Czech Republic, Germany, Russia and also in Poland on Russian :D Seems I'd like to do any thing instead learning philosophy *and it's right XO*
Tomorrow two leactures of judiciary will be again as today. And I won't can learn philosophy in their time, and it makes me think I won't learn fucking philosophy in time...
In headphones suddenly is Tokio Hotel. You can not believe my but these strange Germans help me to learn fucking philosophy xD And also help to not sleep :D Cos' I wanna sleep sooooo much :((( Better I'll back to my warm cacao and philosophy A_A 

#blah-blah-blah

Found nice video with amazing light song. And now I'm sitting with terrible headache, tired and sleepy and singing "love you very very very-very much" :D Better if you'll see with your own eyes, really beautiful and inspired video. As usual Barca is the best! :3 Love you, guuuys!!! <3 <3 <3 =*****

Also the song is good what plays in video (Close up - October). It's in time now :D *la-la-la~~~*
In postcrossing I got today address nice guy from China who likes FC Barcelona as me :D And actually I guess he likes it more than me but it doesn't matter. I signed his postcard very good xD Really I became satisfied! :D Even made photo for memory :D *bad quality of photo cos' I don't have energy for standing up and repeating with good light. I'm vegetable and my head is paining :(*

Today in university I saw my own card with privet information and had laughed long time. Seems like I was with fake hairs at that time :D
Ah, tired. Go to sleep A_A Tomorrow I'll learn phylosophy for my near exams. God, save my soul and save my mind. Amen.
Rays of love!

#last_week

Last week before I'll back to Institute for my session :) Last five days of work. And I have no ideas how to do everything in time on my stupid work. Tomorrow I'll have to go to my chief and tell him about one mistake O_o And it seems he will kill me. Actually sometimes I think about how would be perfect if I'd be fired :D I wouldn't have to think a reason for leaving work :D *stupid minds*
Writting funfic and wanna end it as soon as possible. Seems I'm losing my inspiration every day more and more and don't wanna wait for time what I could write nothing.
Today is a day of Hurts. Except my lovely Stay, Guilt, Mercy and Only You I found amazing slowly cover on Oasis's Wonderwall.

Yesterday I was woken up at 8 am. I had thirty minute for breakfast, washing teeth and wearing my clothes. Then I went to traffic police. For last getting of documents. And at the end I lost almost day with this stupid Caddy what I wanted to break tomorrow >_> Came back home only about 4 or 5 pm. Was hungry and angry, hated all the world. And today is really useless day. I woke up at 10 am. And I'm still in bed. Reading, listening music and doing nothing. Suppose I'll be sorry tomorrow that I lose this day. But today I'm just vegetable. It's cold on the street and maybe will be raining. And I don't wanna ride alone today. So I'm just staying at home.

Yesterday I recieved amazing postcard from Malaysia! Really fantastic and funny card. I'm in love with it xD Thanks to nice Postcrossing's user GreenTeaGal. She made my day :)

Also Leo Messi played 250 games in La Liga :) Wonderful Messi :) Greetings to Messi.

#last_drop_again

Today was the hardest day of my work >_> Really was hard often before but today was the most crazy and stupid day. And I guess it's enough for me. I'll go to exams' session and after will be what will be. And I don't care about chief any more. Why should I care about him if he doesn't care about me? I guess I don't have to. After work I feel terrible headache. And I know that tomorrow will be terrible day cos' I have found one great mistake in one letter what I have wrote to other organization for construction times' agreement. Seems we have lost one object when we have edited this letter. And we edited it the least five times... And I know that there is my fault but my chief's fault is here too. But I know very well that at the end it will be only my fault, chief will blame only me and noone more. I'm sure in it more that I wanted... Anyway I'm tired cos' of this wild temp of work and every day's the ends of the world. I'm not surgeon and noone would die if I'd do something little slowly as he wants every day. I just need time for understanding. And usual at the end I recognize that really I had more time that he said. And cos' of it at the end I do a lot of mistakes. And very serious blunders... and ath the end it's only my fault >_> I thought that nothing could surprise me. And every day I see something new, do something new and hear something new. And every day more crazy that days before, more wild and more exhausting...
Anyway the song of today's evening is Ray Charles' "Hit the road Jack":

And I'd like to say my chief "Hit the road" :) Dreams, dreams,dreams. And song for relaxing:

As usual I just believe that everything will be alright. Couldn't be something other. Everything becomes better everytime, and the present time is not exception. All I can do now is to believe in the better end :) And noone could make it to be deprived for me.

Yesterday Barcelona played with Ajax :( And I missed translation as usual. Last time my internet become the more and more worst every day. Sometimes seems like speed falls down on my eyes. And I'm tired cos' of it. That's why I offered setting of new cables for new network in my flat. Thanks God, there will be good internet soon. And I could watch football without probles. And now that's all I need for happiness :( Miss Barca guys and hate my work *Amen!*
Oh, better I'll go to finish my The Game of Thrones' funfic xD
Rays of love!

#days_off

So. There was amazing days off. Why? Because of my stupid work. Now when I hate it so much my days off became really magical. I forget about work and live like another life. Every days off I like to leave my life and start to another. It's really nice feeling :)
Today I was going on the bus to home and one old woman was late to bus. She run on the road but bus driver closed doors and started to move. She screamed and started to wave her arms. And driver stoped the bus on the middle of road and opened door. For what am I writting it here right now? I don't know I felt myself really happy at this moment. I thought about my life and about everything what I did in my life and result is happiness. Driver was very kind man. He waited for old woman. And old woman crossed all bus for saying "thanks" to driver. It was really nice. I forgot that people can be kind here in Belarus. Every day I see people who are angry, hate everything and everyone and blame everyone in their own mistaces. Sometime I can't look at people who are around me. I can't understand why they are who they are. Why are they everytime so unsatisfied? Why do they can work at work what they hate? Why do they blame another people in their mistakes? Why do they blame another people that they don't get what they have wanted and dream about? Hoh >_> I was in Bulgaria and when I came back to Belarus I was really shoked. Why is our country so... taut? >_> Sometimes I have very strong desire to leave everything here and go away as far as possible. And forget everything. But at the end doesn't matter that I don't like country where I live. Doesn't matter that I don't like many people who are around me. At the end I'm nonetheless happy. I thought about everything what happened in my life (what I remember :D). I think I made a lot mistakes. I had many chances, many amazing people in my life. I lost a lot of chances and a lot of these people. But I'm thankful for my family, for people who are still near me. For possibility to love and to be loved. I still have dreams and it's wonderful too. Anyway I'd like everyone to be happy as me. Just without reasons. Just because we're still alive and can do everything.
It was lirical digression about life. Now my thoughts about Barca's news will be. And again I have to read news what make me really sadly. The firstly Iniesta don't wanna continue to play in Barcelona. And the next "amazing" new is that Mascherano will leave club at this winter. Are you kidding me? O_o Really? Mascherano? Leave? Barcelona? At winter?.. Wanna fall on the gound, rise my arms and scream as loud as possible: " WHYYYYY?????!!! GOD, WHY??!?!??!?!?!" Joke, of course. But I really dislike this new >_> Mascherano is one of Barca's player who I like almost every game when I see him :( And he'll leave. It's not fair. Villa was transfered to Real Madrid. And where will Mascherano go? :( I know I understand in football really little. And I know that it's normally for football world - to buy and to sell players. But I can't become accustomed to thought that someone of Barca's member could play in other team as David :( *Villa I miss you :(* Why is football world so obsessed on the money? :( It's sadly.
In my earphones Arctic Monkeys' "Why'd you only call me when you're high" is again. And evening is the most calm than this day. And more calm as Saturday. I went to sleep at 4 a.m. at Friday. And yesterday I woke up at 7 a.m. Went to traffic police for gettint license plated for poor Caddy what started to go. Hardly but it really went to poilce >_> Seemed it could stop at any moment X_X Got plates at 5 p.m. I had enough time for going home and backing >_> I was exposed to rain yesterday. Twice. Now I have little throatache >_> Amazing...
And I still have to finish my course work. I have to write 10 sheets more and that's all. But it become harder and harder. Because the more I write this work the less I understand what I write about... And I have no ideas how I will pass exam with this object X_X And my exams' session will be in two weeks. I'm glad that I'll can leave work soon for any time but it seems session will be little wild :)
Anyway. I wanna sleep :( But I'll go and finish this stupid work for forgeting about it once and for all time!

#roar

Today my sister should get her new passport what she passed few weeks ago for exchanging. So seems we will pass our passports to Shengen visa soon :) I couldn't make me be unhappy :D
Tomorrow I will wake up at 7 am. Will go to traffic police. Now I'm sitting and thinking about poor Caddy. Seems it could break during the way from garage to police department >_> Tomorrow will be very interesting day A___A
Tomorrow I should buy a waterproof jacket. Will ride a bicycle :) It's so sad that Minsk is very small city and I don't become tired even if I ride it from one edge to other edge and back :( I wanna be tired cos' of riding!!! >_< But can't :(
Today I was in State Construction Supervision's Inspection. And seems it will be a lot of work at Monday again :( Thank God that at the next couple days I can forget about work. But... at 16th of September I will have to pass my course work what I still didn't finish >_> It's really problem. As usual.
Song of this evening: Arctic Monkeys - Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?! Funny official video and very nice song :D

Should write, write, write. And I write but write useless thing like this text >_> Someone... make me write this stupid work :(

Today was day full of strange news. Firstly I read new about Iniesta who doesn't wanna continue to play in Barcelona O_o I'm seriously hope that I's fake information. Otherwise it's really sadly. Will wait for official information. Secondly again unofficial information about stupid tax what our Belorussian Government wanna fix - the tax for leaving country when you go to other countries except Russia and Ukraine and other CIS countries. Stupidness! Really. If you wanna go to Germany for example you have to pay 100 $ >_> Our officials say that only people who go to foreign countries for some goods will pay this tax but really noone knows what it will be. At the first time everyone thought that it's a joke. But time's running out and they talk about it seriously... Will see what will be later... =/ And of course, it's a lot of gossips about money. Someone says that course of dollar and euro will rise. It's not official too but it really could be :( Hey! Guys! I wanna go to Barcelona! Stop to do stupid things!!! >_<