#revelation

Suddenly... I found myself on ficbook where ficwriters publish their works. And I do the same xD
Found the most amazing  funfic about Real Madrid and not only they xD It's amazing story about Sergio Ramos and girl who moved to Madrid from Moscow. Actually I don't care about Ramos but the author of this funfic writes so breathtakingly. I'm in love!
That's how Lulu's working today :D
Also I'm trying to finish my sadly song about Lyanna and Rheagar :D Seems I'm in the middle of my way... A_A
Anyway I think it's really good for me - to read and write funfics. It's very funny and joyful! :D And makes me to be happy and keep smile. Almost like postcards :D
Mimimi :3
Today I decided to make t-shirt with meow-meow Messi xD Wanna make it so much! So in few days I'll make my little dream come true :D It would be really funny! XD

#last_week

Last week before I'll back to Institute for my session :) Last five days of work. And I have no ideas how to do everything in time on my stupid work. Tomorrow I'll have to go to my chief and tell him about one mistake O_o And it seems he will kill me. Actually sometimes I think about how would be perfect if I'd be fired :D I wouldn't have to think a reason for leaving work :D *stupid minds*
Writting funfic and wanna end it as soon as possible. Seems I'm losing my inspiration every day more and more and don't wanna wait for time what I could write nothing.
Today is a day of Hurts. Except my lovely Stay, Guilt, Mercy and Only You I found amazing slowly cover on Oasis's Wonderwall.

Yesterday I was woken up at 8 am. I had thirty minute for breakfast, washing teeth and wearing my clothes. Then I went to traffic police. For last getting of documents. And at the end I lost almost day with this stupid Caddy what I wanted to break tomorrow >_> Came back home only about 4 or 5 pm. Was hungry and angry, hated all the world. And today is really useless day. I woke up at 10 am. And I'm still in bed. Reading, listening music and doing nothing. Suppose I'll be sorry tomorrow that I lose this day. But today I'm just vegetable. It's cold on the street and maybe will be raining. And I don't wanna ride alone today. So I'm just staying at home.

Yesterday I recieved amazing postcard from Malaysia! Really fantastic and funny card. I'm in love with it xD Thanks to nice Postcrossing's user GreenTeaGal. She made my day :)

Also Leo Messi played 250 games in La Liga :) Wonderful Messi :) Greetings to Messi.

#last_drop_again

Today was the hardest day of my work >_> Really was hard often before but today was the most crazy and stupid day. And I guess it's enough for me. I'll go to exams' session and after will be what will be. And I don't care about chief any more. Why should I care about him if he doesn't care about me? I guess I don't have to. After work I feel terrible headache. And I know that tomorrow will be terrible day cos' I have found one great mistake in one letter what I have wrote to other organization for construction times' agreement. Seems we have lost one object when we have edited this letter. And we edited it the least five times... And I know that there is my fault but my chief's fault is here too. But I know very well that at the end it will be only my fault, chief will blame only me and noone more. I'm sure in it more that I wanted... Anyway I'm tired cos' of this wild temp of work and every day's the ends of the world. I'm not surgeon and noone would die if I'd do something little slowly as he wants every day. I just need time for understanding. And usual at the end I recognize that really I had more time that he said. And cos' of it at the end I do a lot of mistakes. And very serious blunders... and ath the end it's only my fault >_> I thought that nothing could surprise me. And every day I see something new, do something new and hear something new. And every day more crazy that days before, more wild and more exhausting...
Anyway the song of today's evening is Ray Charles' "Hit the road Jack":

And I'd like to say my chief "Hit the road" :) Dreams, dreams,dreams. And song for relaxing:

As usual I just believe that everything will be alright. Couldn't be something other. Everything becomes better everytime, and the present time is not exception. All I can do now is to believe in the better end :) And noone could make it to be deprived for me.

Yesterday Barcelona played with Ajax :( And I missed translation as usual. Last time my internet become the more and more worst every day. Sometimes seems like speed falls down on my eyes. And I'm tired cos' of it. That's why I offered setting of new cables for new network in my flat. Thanks God, there will be good internet soon. And I could watch football without probles. And now that's all I need for happiness :( Miss Barca guys and hate my work *Amen!*
Oh, better I'll go to finish my The Game of Thrones' funfic xD
Rays of love!

#what_i_ve_done

Recently I have finished my course work. Resutl of last days off: not enough rest, sleepless nights and finished cours work. I passed it yesterday and forgot as the worst nightmare. And this's very good :)
And today at morning I recieved messagr from one italian man who's interested in exchanging postcards with me. And this's amazing :D
Actually I wanna boast of my new postcard what I have ordered week ago:

Finally I have really nice postcards and I wanna send all of them as soon as possible :) 

Today is only Thursday. I wanted to take day off to Wednesday, but chief, of course, don't wanna let me go >_> If I'd say him that I'll go to exams' session in one and half week he would really not let me go. And of course I still didn't say him... :3 Wanna stay at home tomorrow. Actually I'll have to go to the traffic police tomorrow at morning. And passed license plates. And I'll can forget about poor Caddy and its problems for ever :)

There is chaos at work. One ocncert was at Friday. And my collegue and me should go there. We came there actually but it was really stupid and terrible A_A I think about that it's usual for states organizations - you're forced to visit some measures. And if you lose it you could find mane problems with it. And I lost this concert :) But I guess i could not find more problems than I have now with this the most stupid and nervous work. Suppose I'll say my chief soon tha I leave him with his constant orders and asking of impossible things.

Today I can't think about work and also work :D I think only about pillow and warm coverlet. Wanna go home and lay in the bed and sle-e-e-e-ep. And go to Barcelona :D

About Barcelona I'm little upset. In Belarus something happens with state and with money. And even if I understand in these changes nothing, I understand that at the end nothing good will be here. I just hope that my Barcelona won't leave me >_> Because thoughts about it are the single thing what helps me to endure every day at this fucking work :(

Anyway I passed work and now I'm on the finish line. Soon I'll leave work for studying. And two weeks noone will ask me to impossible thing. Really hope that it will be enough for taking rest a little and collecting energy to continue to work here again :( Oh, I never hated my work so much before :(

Rays of kindness to everyone.

#days_off

So. There was amazing days off. Why? Because of my stupid work. Now when I hate it so much my days off became really magical. I forget about work and live like another life. Every days off I like to leave my life and start to another. It's really nice feeling :)
Today I was going on the bus to home and one old woman was late to bus. She run on the road but bus driver closed doors and started to move. She screamed and started to wave her arms. And driver stoped the bus on the middle of road and opened door. For what am I writting it here right now? I don't know I felt myself really happy at this moment. I thought about my life and about everything what I did in my life and result is happiness. Driver was very kind man. He waited for old woman. And old woman crossed all bus for saying "thanks" to driver. It was really nice. I forgot that people can be kind here in Belarus. Every day I see people who are angry, hate everything and everyone and blame everyone in their own mistaces. Sometime I can't look at people who are around me. I can't understand why they are who they are. Why are they everytime so unsatisfied? Why do they can work at work what they hate? Why do they blame another people in their mistakes? Why do they blame another people that they don't get what they have wanted and dream about? Hoh >_> I was in Bulgaria and when I came back to Belarus I was really shoked. Why is our country so... taut? >_> Sometimes I have very strong desire to leave everything here and go away as far as possible. And forget everything. But at the end doesn't matter that I don't like country where I live. Doesn't matter that I don't like many people who are around me. At the end I'm nonetheless happy. I thought about everything what happened in my life (what I remember :D). I think I made a lot mistakes. I had many chances, many amazing people in my life. I lost a lot of chances and a lot of these people. But I'm thankful for my family, for people who are still near me. For possibility to love and to be loved. I still have dreams and it's wonderful too. Anyway I'd like everyone to be happy as me. Just without reasons. Just because we're still alive and can do everything.
It was lirical digression about life. Now my thoughts about Barca's news will be. And again I have to read news what make me really sadly. The firstly Iniesta don't wanna continue to play in Barcelona. And the next "amazing" new is that Mascherano will leave club at this winter. Are you kidding me? O_o Really? Mascherano? Leave? Barcelona? At winter?.. Wanna fall on the gound, rise my arms and scream as loud as possible: " WHYYYYY?????!!! GOD, WHY??!?!??!?!?!" Joke, of course. But I really dislike this new >_> Mascherano is one of Barca's player who I like almost every game when I see him :( And he'll leave. It's not fair. Villa was transfered to Real Madrid. And where will Mascherano go? :( I know I understand in football really little. And I know that it's normally for football world - to buy and to sell players. But I can't become accustomed to thought that someone of Barca's member could play in other team as David :( *Villa I miss you :(* Why is football world so obsessed on the money? :( It's sadly.
In my earphones Arctic Monkeys' "Why'd you only call me when you're high" is again. And evening is the most calm than this day. And more calm as Saturday. I went to sleep at 4 a.m. at Friday. And yesterday I woke up at 7 a.m. Went to traffic police for gettint license plated for poor Caddy what started to go. Hardly but it really went to poilce >_> Seemed it could stop at any moment X_X Got plates at 5 p.m. I had enough time for going home and backing >_> I was exposed to rain yesterday. Twice. Now I have little throatache >_> Amazing...
And I still have to finish my course work. I have to write 10 sheets more and that's all. But it become harder and harder. Because the more I write this work the less I understand what I write about... And I have no ideas how I will pass exam with this object X_X And my exams' session will be in two weeks. I'm glad that I'll can leave work soon for any time but it seems session will be little wild :)
Anyway. I wanna sleep :( But I'll go and finish this stupid work for forgeting about it once and for all time!

#roar

Today my sister should get her new passport what she passed few weeks ago for exchanging. So seems we will pass our passports to Shengen visa soon :) I couldn't make me be unhappy :D
Tomorrow I will wake up at 7 am. Will go to traffic police. Now I'm sitting and thinking about poor Caddy. Seems it could break during the way from garage to police department >_> Tomorrow will be very interesting day A___A
Tomorrow I should buy a waterproof jacket. Will ride a bicycle :) It's so sad that Minsk is very small city and I don't become tired even if I ride it from one edge to other edge and back :( I wanna be tired cos' of riding!!! >_< But can't :(
Today I was in State Construction Supervision's Inspection. And seems it will be a lot of work at Monday again :( Thank God that at the next couple days I can forget about work. But... at 16th of September I will have to pass my course work what I still didn't finish >_> It's really problem. As usual.
Song of this evening: Arctic Monkeys - Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?! Funny official video and very nice song :D

Should write, write, write. And I write but write useless thing like this text >_> Someone... make me write this stupid work :(

Today was day full of strange news. Firstly I read new about Iniesta who doesn't wanna continue to play in Barcelona O_o I'm seriously hope that I's fake information. Otherwise it's really sadly. Will wait for official information. Secondly again unofficial information about stupid tax what our Belorussian Government wanna fix - the tax for leaving country when you go to other countries except Russia and Ukraine and other CIS countries. Stupidness! Really. If you wanna go to Germany for example you have to pay 100 $ >_> Our officials say that only people who go to foreign countries for some goods will pay this tax but really noone knows what it will be. At the first time everyone thought that it's a joke. But time's running out and they talk about it seriously... Will see what will be later... =/ And of course, it's a lot of gossips about money. Someone says that course of dollar and euro will rise. It's not official too but it really could be :( Hey! Guys! I wanna go to Barcelona! Stop to do stupid things!!! >_<

#evening

Just came home. Very tired and wanna sleep so much :)
There was hard day at work as usual. But at the end of the day I thought that I don't wanna lose my nerves in this stupid work for money what is payed to me (pure payment >_>). And I leaved work at 5 o'clock for going to our custom service to take Volkswagen Caddy what is come from Germany. We arrived to custom at six. And I just came home >_> We loose about three hours for preparing all documents, paying all taxes and etc, for waiting of evacuator (cos' Caddy has problems with his engine and when it came to Belarus its accumulator became discharged :D), for bringing poor Caddy to workshop. At Saturday I'll go to traffic police to get Caddy's license plates. And it will be about two hours too :( And it would be if poor Caddy would start to go... Could happens that problems with engine is more hard than seemed.

Night Caddy's trip

Few minutes ago I ordered a lot of beautiful postcards. Now I think how many money I spent for it... but they're really so beautiful... I'll show after.
Anyway now I'm sitting on the couch and drinking mint tea. Good way to keep calm and prepare to sleepeng. Listening The Doors, reading news about Barca, signing postcards and I'm almost backed to normal condition :)

Lulu's evening

Today I recieved message from Spanish men who's interested in exchanging postcards with me. I'm happy :)
I decided to enter in one more university for getting the second education O_o" Sadly but I'll can do it only at next autumn. Wait for it without patience A_A
That's all for today.
Good night, Lulu.
Good night, world :)

#commonness

Today was really terrible day. I don't remember when was the day like that before. Now I feel my self like squeezed orange. Don't have energy any more. My chief became really crazy after day when director in organization where I work was fired. Now my chief works instead director too, and he has twofold work as before. I can understand him, this is really difficult for him. But my nerves can't stand it any more. Every day work becomes the harder and harder and chief becomes the more angry. He screams almost every day and asks me to do things what I never did before. But today's work day cut the ground from under my feet. I did things what can't be stowed in my head. Never. I saw that part of my work that I never saw before. And would be better if I'd never see it. Almost all day I wanted to stop and cry because about things like these in Belarus says "впихнуть невпихуемое". In few words it means "to do impossible things". I'm tired of chief's asking every day about things like that. But today was deadline. I hated my work before but today I really started to thing that it's time for looking new job. I can't say more precisely what happened at my work but now I feel myself really bad. I forgot about everything - about course work, about funfics, about football, about bicycle. At work today everything what I wanted - it's to go at home, lay on the couch, cover by coverlet and forget ebout everything what links with work. It was so stressful for me that I still can't get it over. I know that sleeping is the greatest cure. And I hope that I could fall asleep fast tonight. And I hope more that I could feel myself better tomorrow. Because tomorrow I'll have to back at work and start to do impossible again cos' my chief wants it. And the greatest horridness of this day is that when will come the time to take the consequences it would be really the end. Who will answer? Of course, me. Who else? Doesn't matter - I wanted to do it or not. Doesn't matter who said me to do it. Doesn't matter why I did it. At the end I will be athe edge and it will be only my fault even if in real it's the fault of my chief. At the end I'll be alone as usual it happens in the same cases. People could be really cruel and you do nothing with it. At the end it will be really your fault, you'll stay alone to answer for things what you had to do cos' you didn't have other way to do. Today I was faced with the harsh reality and it was really painful and scareful. And now I don't know what to do any more. Seems I just have belived in the better side of people more that I should. And this is really my fault.
I just want tomorrow to be better day than that. I wanna forget about this fucking work and just stay alone.

#crazy_wednesday

Came back to work. And last days I work-work-work only. A lot of work as usual. Noone did something what was needed to do. So I try to finish all what's needed.
Today we packed my mom's things at her work. At the end of september she'll move on new work place. But now we should to bring all her things to home for two-three weeks. It was the faster as we thought. But anyway at the end I felt myself broken and tired.
I leaved work today about 1,5 hours earlier as should. And I wanted to go at work later tomorrow. But when I came home I notives that I tried to hurry up too much today before my leaving at work and I forgot few documents what I'll need tomorrow. Actually I just thought that I'll wake up one hour later than usual (at 7 o'clock instead 6 o'clock) and will go to Inspection of the State Construction Supervision's Department (yes, it's my work to go there to :D). Buuut.... I'll can't go there without all documents. But I don't wanna wake up at 6 am and go to work as usual... I wanna do nothing and sleep all day long !  Now I'm thinking about how to miss part of work at tomorrow. Hmm... re-read what I wrote. Sounds terrible :D I'm not so bad worker as could seem :) Really my work became really terrible and incredible. I hate it more and mpre often. Last days I have to work at the lunch break and my collegues (with who I miss lunch every day) are offended cos' of it. But I can do nothing. I have to work because otherwise my chief will scream. And I don't wanna listen his screaming.. >_> Nothing strange. Anyway I didn't make plan yet...
Today at work I was little strange. At time when I had time out from work I did strange things. For example I made my little Krapivka (it's my violet plant what live at my work) to read estimate and drink a blueberries' tea...

I'm really tired. Signed three postcards and now it's time to go to sleep. 

Want days off will go faster. I'm vegetable already.