#suddenly

Sometimes I miss some people I have lost in my life. Sometimes I miss things I have lost. Sometimes I miss some conditions I have been before.
My word is changed very much at last time. I changed job. I did it. And I really proud of myself. But I'm not feel I am really satisfied with it. But it's really good I think. Work is harder but it's more expensive. And also I have good perspectives here. It's time to think about future.
With new job I started to collect money for my needs. And I think it's good reason for proud too.
Argentina has lost world cup. It's very sad. Alexis was sold to Arsenal. It's sad too. Barca sold all of my lovely guys. It's not so funny too.
I moved on. Now I'm trying to get used to new home, new district, new people here, new life. It's not so easy I have ever thought. I miss my mom often. And I miss my sister too.  Sometimes I feel guilty I have left my mom alone. It's disgusting feeling. I don't like it.
I will have new cousin in half of year. Noone knows it would be girl or big yet. But seems it would be funny.
My elder cousin graduated her college and found new amazing job in excellent and also expensive restaurant in our city. I proud of her too. She also entered into university in Smolensk, Russia.  My little clever girl.
Sometimes I feel like I forget some parts of English I have learned before. It seems only I have to start practice again. It's time to stop be stupid sheep and remember everyone I have forgotten.
Sometimes I want to back at half year before. But life doesn't stop. Sometimes it seems sad. But anyway today is better than yesterday. Then tomorrow will be better than today.
I hope so.
Have to sleep. 

#so_so

So. El clasico. Barcelona - Real Madrid. I even found time for watching this game *yes, Lulu stoped to watch movies and serials for watching this game xD*
Anyway about my day off in general. Today at morning I woke up with thoughts about pasta with cheese :D But I didn't have cheese and also didn't have wish to go to market for buying it :D And I decided to cook sweet cupcakes A_A I guess cupcakes are not for me >_> I cook good. Soup? Ok. Meat? Ok. Chiken? With great pleasure! Cookies? Of course! Even huge sweet cakes! But... cupcakes is my curse >_> So I did it anyway. But more than half of my "creations" I had to sent to garbage box >_> *I'm wizard of kitchen fuck yeah*
Also I recieved today my firts postcard from Spain! But it was sent by chinese boy who lives in Cordoba and studies Spanish. *I'd like to live there too :(((*
Also I did cleaning on my kitchen. Watched new episod of Marvel's "Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.", Spanish movies "Combustion" (actully I even almost like it :D), stupid movie "Just Wright" and danced almost all day on kitchen during cooking and cleaning. I can say I have spent this day almost useful.
And when started Barca vs. Real Madrid's game my internet started to work very bad >_> Anyway the game was not so good as I thought. Coongratulations to Neymar who scored at the first time and opened count. And of course my lovely Sanchez scored too :) Was nice shot :D And last goal was from Jese Rodriguez to Barca's gate. Anyway it didn't change result - Barca won. But I can't say that I liked this game. It was almost al time bored and uninteresting. Where was Messi? :( And I'm sad that Sanchez came to game only at the second time *ye-e-es-s-s-s, Lulu wanna look at Sanchez all time :D* There was not a lot of interesting and danger moments. Lyrical digression... I can't understand for what Real Madrid gave 100 millions... As commentator said "Bale's going away. Was only one really worthwhile moment from him nearly gate of opponents". Only one? Really? For 100 millions?.. Boring >_> Yes, I understand nothing in football. Better go to watch one more spanish movie...
Photos are not from today's el Clasico. Just Snachez to everyone :D Lovely number nine!

#blah-blah-blah

Found nice video with amazing light song. And now I'm sitting with terrible headache, tired and sleepy and singing "love you very very very-very much" :D Better if you'll see with your own eyes, really beautiful and inspired video. As usual Barca is the best! :3 Love you, guuuys!!! <3 <3 <3 =*****

Also the song is good what plays in video (Close up - October). It's in time now :D *la-la-la~~~*
In postcrossing I got today address nice guy from China who likes FC Barcelona as me :D And actually I guess he likes it more than me but it doesn't matter. I signed his postcard very good xD Really I became satisfied! :D Even made photo for memory :D *bad quality of photo cos' I don't have energy for standing up and repeating with good light. I'm vegetable and my head is paining :(*

Today in university I saw my own card with privet information and had laughed long time. Seems like I was with fake hairs at that time :D
Ah, tired. Go to sleep A_A Tomorrow I'll learn phylosophy for my near exams. God, save my soul and save my mind. Amen.
Rays of love!

#last_drop_again

Today was the hardest day of my work >_> Really was hard often before but today was the most crazy and stupid day. And I guess it's enough for me. I'll go to exams' session and after will be what will be. And I don't care about chief any more. Why should I care about him if he doesn't care about me? I guess I don't have to. After work I feel terrible headache. And I know that tomorrow will be terrible day cos' I have found one great mistake in one letter what I have wrote to other organization for construction times' agreement. Seems we have lost one object when we have edited this letter. And we edited it the least five times... And I know that there is my fault but my chief's fault is here too. But I know very well that at the end it will be only my fault, chief will blame only me and noone more. I'm sure in it more that I wanted... Anyway I'm tired cos' of this wild temp of work and every day's the ends of the world. I'm not surgeon and noone would die if I'd do something little slowly as he wants every day. I just need time for understanding. And usual at the end I recognize that really I had more time that he said. And cos' of it at the end I do a lot of mistakes. And very serious blunders... and ath the end it's only my fault >_> I thought that nothing could surprise me. And every day I see something new, do something new and hear something new. And every day more crazy that days before, more wild and more exhausting...
Anyway the song of today's evening is Ray Charles' "Hit the road Jack":

And I'd like to say my chief "Hit the road" :) Dreams, dreams,dreams. And song for relaxing:

As usual I just believe that everything will be alright. Couldn't be something other. Everything becomes better everytime, and the present time is not exception. All I can do now is to believe in the better end :) And noone could make it to be deprived for me.

Yesterday Barcelona played with Ajax :( And I missed translation as usual. Last time my internet become the more and more worst every day. Sometimes seems like speed falls down on my eyes. And I'm tired cos' of it. That's why I offered setting of new cables for new network in my flat. Thanks God, there will be good internet soon. And I could watch football without probles. And now that's all I need for happiness :( Miss Barca guys and hate my work *Amen!*
Oh, better I'll go to finish my The Game of Thrones' funfic xD
Rays of love!

#roar

Today my sister should get her new passport what she passed few weeks ago for exchanging. So seems we will pass our passports to Shengen visa soon :) I couldn't make me be unhappy :D
Tomorrow I will wake up at 7 am. Will go to traffic police. Now I'm sitting and thinking about poor Caddy. Seems it could break during the way from garage to police department >_> Tomorrow will be very interesting day A___A
Tomorrow I should buy a waterproof jacket. Will ride a bicycle :) It's so sad that Minsk is very small city and I don't become tired even if I ride it from one edge to other edge and back :( I wanna be tired cos' of riding!!! >_< But can't :(
Today I was in State Construction Supervision's Inspection. And seems it will be a lot of work at Monday again :( Thank God that at the next couple days I can forget about work. But... at 16th of September I will have to pass my course work what I still didn't finish >_> It's really problem. As usual.
Song of this evening: Arctic Monkeys - Why'd You Only Call Me When You're High?! Funny official video and very nice song :D

Should write, write, write. And I write but write useless thing like this text >_> Someone... make me write this stupid work :(

Today was day full of strange news. Firstly I read new about Iniesta who doesn't wanna continue to play in Barcelona O_o I'm seriously hope that I's fake information. Otherwise it's really sadly. Will wait for official information. Secondly again unofficial information about stupid tax what our Belorussian Government wanna fix - the tax for leaving country when you go to other countries except Russia and Ukraine and other CIS countries. Stupidness! Really. If you wanna go to Germany for example you have to pay 100 $ >_> Our officials say that only people who go to foreign countries for some goods will pay this tax but really noone knows what it will be. At the first time everyone thought that it's a joke. But time's running out and they talk about it seriously... Will see what will be later... =/ And of course, it's a lot of gossips about money. Someone says that course of dollar and euro will rise. It's not official too but it really could be :( Hey! Guys! I wanna go to Barcelona! Stop to do stupid things!!! >_<

#day_off

As usual.
Weather is good today. And I'd like to ride bicycle but I can't cos' I'm still not so healthy as it could be wanted. Anyway I have spent this day not so bad :D
Firstly I woke up at 9 o'clock. It's not 6 and not 7 :D So I really slept enough today. And it's great :3
Secondly I cooked chicken with carrot and oninon and mashed potatoes :D Mmmm... delicious. I dreamed about creamy mashed potatoes about two weeks :D
Thirdly I did cleaning and ventilated flat very good.
Now my sister's sleeping, mom's watching TV in the other room. And I'm sitting with notebook and thinking about life :)
I still have to write course work. The theme of course work is "The Judiciary and Justice". I wrote about two third. But still can't finish it. Seems I have lost my muse. For me even writing of course works is very hard process :D I have to be in the needed mood and my muse should be with me. Otherwise I can't make me to write and doesn't matter it's urgently or not. I'll have to deliver me course work to institute in 2 weeks. Deadline will be 16th of September. And it seems I'll finish my work at last night before deadline :) As usual. I hope I'll do it.
Today even my funfiction's muse leaved me alone. I wrote noone word. And I don't like what I wrote yesterday. Seems I lost a thread of the narrative and I need a little time for collecting my thoughts in one pile. And seems I couldn't start to write course work again before I'd end this stupid funfic about Lyanna and Rhaegar >_> lol Nothing funny actually. But can do nothing in this case.
I spent so much time in Russian social network. Met a lot of groups with different themes. And found group about Messi and Ronaldo. As usual on the post-USSR space there was a lot of shit, hatred and rage. (Actually this group is created by schoolboy who is mad about Messi, but he (schoolboy) wrote Messi as Mesi >_> Great!). And in general it was opposition of schoolboys who love Real Madrid and schoolboys who love Barcelona (I'm schoolboy wrom the second camp :D Viva Barcelona! Viva Messi! xD). Anyway one boy sent nice video with Barca's game where firstly Barca's training is shown before the game where members of Barcelona are running, falling, screaming, crying, etc. And secondly the game is shown where Barcelona's doing the same :D Without contacts anyway Barcelona's falling, screaming, crying... And again my lovely Dani Alves. My favorite actor :D I looked at the game with Malaga from other side. I'm little upset but... I'm delighted xD They're so funny :D And song from this video is jammed in my playlist (this song :D). Like it very much. Very sadly that I can't find video on YouTube so then it's not a destiny :D (then I have to leave here link to vkontake). And yes, I still love Barcelona :) Maybe even more than before :D
Watched The Help today. Very-very strong and deep movie. I guess my opinion is keen cos' I'm girl. Cried during this movie twice or thrice. Very long and strong. Even felt headache after cos' of crying. And anyway I liked this movie very much. It's awesome and terrible in the same same. It's terrible because it shows relstions between blacks and whites at 60th years. And I thank Good that now it's more better. Actually there is not so much blacks in Belarus. But even here we have people who hate blacks and Chinese or Japanese who moved on our country. Maybe I'm stupid but I never could understand these people.
Suddenly I got Barcelona's t-shirt from season 2006/07 :D This uniform:

It's very nice and quality. I'm in love. And I'm in it already :D Lulu's happy. But I didn't change mind about visiting a shop on Camp Nou in Barcelona for buying t-shirt from present season :D Mimimi :D
Checked flights to Barcelona today again :) It helps me to remember about plans and collect money like good motivation :)
I'll have a lot plans tomorrow. Need to buy new shoes and visit my aunt Tatyana :) And then to go to chose gift for my mom. Her birthday will be at 7th of September. And we (me and my elder sister) still don't know what to present her :( Want to find something special like my mom is. Wanna make her birthday really unusual :) But now it'will be hard to do cos' mom has troubles with her work what makes her upset and what we can't stop (sadly :( ). Anyway... birthday should be happy and funny :) We'll do it :3
At the day after tomorrow I'll go to work :(

P.S. Today is last day of summer. It makes me sad and thoughtful. I had vacation at June, I saw the sea, put my feet in sea water, swam, got tan under Bulgarian sun... but now I'm sitting on the couch looking at Bulgarian plate with picture of Nessebar's view. And I miss it :( Summer is ended and I miss Nessebar. It was the sweetest time of this summer.

#wednesday

Today is Wednesday already. I have known before that my sudden vacation will end sooner as I want. But I haven't thought that it'd be so soon :( In two days weekend will be and at Monday I'll have to back at work. One thing makes me a little more happy. I'll back at 2nd of Semptember. And at 30th of September my exams' session will start :D And I'll leave work for two weeks again :D Wonders happen :D
Strange but today I feel myself worst than before. Before only hight temperature and headaches were. Now I feel pain in a throat and cough is appeared. Seems I've a cold really now :( Hope I'll have enough time for curing before I'll back at work.
Anyway today Barcelona will play with Atletico again. And I don't know - I'll watch it or miss again >_> Game will be showing in Minsk at midnight and I don't know I would be awake at this time :( I think if I'd watch football before sleeping again I'd listen fucking commentator all night again and wake up at morning with terrible headache... But at this game Messi will back after his trauma. And I'm lost. As says in Belarus и хочется, и колется (both eager and it is pricked - I guess it's really bad translation but I don't know how to translate better). So will see later what would be.
Have signed one more postcard for sending it to wonderful Susanne in Germany. It's so sad - I have twenty postcards in transit. And if start to count about thirty my postcards are traveling somewhere.... :( Where are you, pretty postcards? T_T
I have recieved good news yesterday and today Spain is become little closer. One mom's friend offered me to earn little money :D My mom often likes to say me: "When you start to want something money will find you iself" :D Ahahaha. then I'm lucky girl :D
And at the end lovely meow-meow Messi :D I didn't know what to do that's why I mocked Messi again xD He became really cute :D

#fcb_vs_levante

Today I finally ended to watch game Barca against Levante.
This match has caused me to feel really conflicting emotions. On one side it's great that Barca won. But it looked like big guys hurted little schoolboys. Count 7:0 in favor of Barcelona.
Messi made me laught at that game. He was killing machine :D At the first he gored goalkeeper of Levante. Poor Navas fell down on his back. Seemed it was really painful :( At the second time Messi did golden strike at Rodas's head when he (Messi) beat penal. I pity Levante's guys but it was really funny.
At second time Neymar Jr. came on the field instead Sanchez. And I didn't understand why Barca bought him. He not only didn't nothing really good but even made a few mistakes and got yellow card cos' of incident with 12th number of Levante (Garcia?). Of course, maybe it was as it was because Martino produced Neymar only at the second time nearly to the end. And almost all time Messi was on the field. Or maybe because Neymar wasn't accustomed to Barca, cos' it was his first game. Will see. I can't judge because I understand nothing in football except handsome guys :D But today he really looked like lost boy who didn't understand where he's and what he had to do. I didn't like Neymar yet. Maybe something will change later. After Barsa vs Atletico de Madrid for example :)
Count was opened by Sanchez on the 3rd minute of match. And it was beat into free gate... Actually I didn't understand how it happened. Also I didn't understand and last goal from Pedro :D Almost all first time looked like Barca's kidding Levante. Six goals were scored at first time. And only at the end on second time Pedro scored last goal on 73th minute of game.
Of course, Messi scored two goals. Ahahaha, how can Barca without Messi's goals?) The first goal was on 12th minute, the second was on the 42th minutes by penalty.
Also Pedro did two goals like Messi. The first was on 26th minute, the second - on 73th (as I wrote before).
Sanchez scored on 3d minute, Dani Alves scored on the 24th minute, Xavi - on the 45th.
Was few times when fighting was really intense. Few times the ball flew at arm's length from the Levante's gate. But at the end almost all game was passed on the Levante's side. Only once ball flew on Barca's gate and Valdes had a chance to remind team that he's here :) And of course penalty was useless.
At the end I can say that I liked very much in this game Pedro, Pique, Messi, Fabregas, Xavi, Sanches.
Wait for game between Barca and Atletico de Madrid :3

#davidvilla

As beginner lover of Barcelona I had enoough time for starting to love cute David Villa. And it's really sad for me that he moved on "Atletico de Madrid". I will miss him on Camp Nou and other Barca's games. Firt goal of Barca what I have seen it was Villa's goal.
So and Villa was one of not many people from Barca who I rememberd at first time :D Now I should remember new surname. It's not fair!